Help i cant take it anymore guys i think this is affecting me and my emotional health?

For example wen my computer boots at exactly 22 seconds i m just calm and happy but wen it boots at 30 sec or more i get irritated and makes me wanna sell my computer but seriously i have a good computer with excellent specs and updates off and no viruses but still i always think of it and its affecting my life and emotional health and most important family responsibilities i dont know wats wrong with me btw im a 19 year old male and im in 3rd year college seriously im becoming depressed everytime i think of it help please and btw iv tried everything but still i cant take off the problem still it persist even wen i wake up on morning... The only way to break free from my curse is to sell it or alter the problem...

dude.....just relax..........what does it matter if it takes 10-20 seconds more to boot....if its really troubling you that much just, get rid of it then.