towards Melancholy? Why is it that when I'm happy or in a great mood or in a good place in my life. I immediately start to think about my ex? For example I will have some down time or time to myself and I think of her. It's almost as if I'd rather have this sadness. Or maybe it's just that all that I have of her now is the memories, feelings such as love, resentment, and anger. And I want to use those as a way of having her in my life, even though it's all in my head and heart?..... Idk. What's your opinion?