problem.? Basically for many years this guy was my best friend, I'm talking literally like brothers, me and him against the world.

Anyway we "fell out" and stopped talking for years and years, I went through a terrible bout of depression and was in a dark place.

I met him again for the first time in years, as a human I dislike him, he irritates me so we've clearly grown apart.

But I can't seem to forget him and let him go, the "old him" that is forever gone represents the happy, he is like the last physical manifestation of all the joy we had that is forever gone.

Getting rid of him would be like killing my old childhood and I'm scared of that.

Here's what's strange, I'm a 100% heterosexual man not even bi curious, I don't love him in a sexual way but in a weird nostalgia way.

A way in which I miss the old him that I loved with such affection.