It's weird. I'll see something once, think nothing. See it twice, see what's going on in the scene. See it a third time, I'll be, "Whoa, I fully relate (or can understand why so and so did that)". Fourth time, that perception is gone.

With this, I have this belief that in order for me to do things properly in each regard, whether it be things I enjoy doing, I feel as if I have to have that understanding, that proper perception of things, all the time! This stresses me out. I think I would have it if I wasn't thinking so hard. But when I do have it, I'm still not "content". What are your thoughts? Thanks.