I'm eighteen years old and for as long as I've known I've always been straight, there's been times when I've acted a bit camp joking around and some people have thought I was gay but that's just me messing around.

Anyway I was like one of the horniest guys ever especially when it came to girls and porn and whatever. A couple of weeks ago this gay guy who I don't get along with at all, starts telling me he thinks I'm gay. And usually it wouldn't bother me but it did and had me paranoid for a while, thinking that I might turn out gay. Then I started watching a show called Dawson's Creek and there's character that turned gay in Season Two and again it made me think I'd turn out gay again which got me even more paranoid.

But when I was masterbating to regular heterosexual stuff everything was going fine, then I found myslf fantasing in small doses about guy on guy but I'm not sexually aroused by it at all, it doesn't give me an erection at all, if lucky a tiny little tingle and that's if I know I'm gonna get a bit horny later. And in the past I've been kissed by a guy off guard when he was drunk, on the lips and that did nothing for me at all and I've been dry humped by a drunk friend as a joke and again that did nothing for me. But when I've kissed girls or done other stuff my hormones have went crazy.

But I'm still having these thoughts and I'm finding it a bit hard now when masterbating, it's not hard to get an erection but finishing up is proving to be a bit more difficult than usual but maybe that's because I'm doing it all the time and I'm getting a bit bored but the hormones keep kicking in. Anyway the other day I was masterbating and about to finish up, literally on the tip of climaxing and all thoughts were racing in my head and then next thing one of my guy friends comes into mind for a few seconds just as I climax but when I actually did, it usually feels great and my penis will do this thing but when this happened it sort of shook by itself and then went down pretty quickly after I climaxed. I thought I was turning gay but if I was then surely it would've felt as good as it did in the past, if not better? And I just had this horrible guilty feeling inside of me and I couldn't sleep at all that night.

Anyway, what's going on with me? Am I actually turning gay or bi or whatever? Or am I just a bit curious? I'm a virgin, so I'm thinking that maybe I've been masterbating to porn for too many years instead of actually doing physical sex. I've also noticed that when climaxing it's not feeling as good, it was a few days ago but now it's going crap. I can do it but there hasn't been a good sensation. Is that because I'm doing it too many times a day lately and I need to calm down? I don't think it can be the gay thing because as I said when that happened it felt crap too and my penis just went down after it. And to clarify I didn't enjoy it when my friend kissed me, it was off guard and it just never did anything for me and I didn't exactly enjoy getting dry humped either.

When I look at a girl I know if I like her or not whereas with guys I kinda just say if they're ugly or good looking, like the difference between Brad Pitt and Mickey Rourke but I'm not attracted to them. So am I just starting to get a bit bored of being in the same routine for so many years and I actually need to go out there and some physical action? Someone tell me what's going on here.