Hiya Mike..:wave:...have been catching up on your posts and want you to know that I understand all the questions and concerns you have going on right now. Its crazy , isnt it , that we ask the questions , know the correct response but still want to bury our heaRAB in a comforting fog rather than deal with the issue. I agree with secrets (good ole girl!) and think that the depression is something that should be addressed as its seems to be a trigger for your addictions. Rehab could be a good move though I get your concerns and know that youve been there before. If you chose that option then maybe you should try and attack it all from a different angle. I wish that Id done rehab years ago , but feel I cant go that route now cause of my 2 small boys. I couldnt bear to leave them , and would have to admit to my family that Im not really clean (they think its all in the past....to them Ive been clean 6 yrs now. If bloody only).
Back to you...........have you ever been to just an eating disorders clinic? Or is it possible to find somewhere that would deal with both?
How have you done today? Please let me know as its good for me too to know that you understand my struggles. Today have been up and down BUT no street drugs for 2 days. It was very up and down today and the poor people round me couldnt do or say anything to me at times. I am really worried bout tomorrow as its payday and I cant every remeraber a payday where I havent got high. I really am desperately trying to think of ways to talk myself out of it in the morning but sometimes I just feel lost.
Sorry mike , enough of me , post soon and keep struggling. I mean , keep going.
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