He slept with some girls he didn't really like. He was sexually attracted to them. But I still loved him when I knew he got astray in life. I was lost.
He is more mature than those girls. He knew those girls were naive somewhat, but shallow. I knew he was more mature than me, but we were both shallow.
Now I choose to leave him. I might be never lost after I leave him, although I miss him. He might be no longer lost if he lives alone and repent for the past.
I am now in sadness, but I am better. I know if we date, he will sleep with me too. And it will just make his life worse because he defines love based on a sexual level. But love should be more profund than life. Maybe Spirit wants him and me to understand something, so my love for him won't be complete and blessed as punishment for both of us. His fault was his playing with those innocent girls. And my fault was my love feelings for him.