Hello,

I am a 17 year old guy. I hit puberty at around 16 due to late growth, I hear from all my friends 14/15 is the most sexual time in your life so far. Through the past 2 years I have been thinking about sex 247 non stop, I have gotten full on erections from seeing girls in spandex/nice titties. I watch porn all the time, I have liked girls/been attracted to girls. I really like girls but I don't really have a relationship with my father and it created a weird manifesto of deprivation of male figures, so sometimes I will have fantasies about older men taking me to strip clubs/getting me with girls or I'll look at good looking guys as alpha, be interested in abs/butt how they stand/how they present themselves.. (What girls want).

When I watch porn, I usually watch it in hopes of me being the role of the guy/being interested in how he touches a girl etc.

Well a week ago, I saw a good looking guy on Tumblr and suddenly started watching Gay porn.. I did get an erection, but it was not as hard as it was for like a Jayden James video. I want to actually be with girls but does it change my sexuality for getting an erection/experimenting with those videos?

Tonight I saw a photo of a good looking guy again but began to jerk off with fantasies about boys I know. But I like girls, I like thick girls and even thought about a girl in tight jeans I checked out today.
What does everything mean? I like girls and want to be with girls, I hope I am straight..

I am lost, I really am. I hope this is my hormones, I only have even known liking girls from when I was very young.