Sighs.. I just feel so depressed
I'm 20 years old and I have a crush on this guy in my class When it was time to leave the classroom, I rushed to the door to hold it for him. After getting the door for him, he grabbed it from me and insisted that I go first. I did so and he left after me. He's Asian so the fact that I held the door for him was a big blow to his ego and I think he was very very offended I haven't seen him ever since....

I don't know what I was thinking!!! I don't think I was even using my brain when I decided to rush there to grab the door first! I know its weird and bad for a girl to do this because guys don't like it YET something in me, something made me rush there to grab the door. I'm so depressed because he's asian and asian guys don't like this at all. I just made myself seem like a stupid, man-hating FEMINIST! I don't know what made me do that - maybe I wanted to get attention from him, maybe I wanted to do something for him, I don't know...

Do you think I lost my chance?