Okay so.. I'm borderline and I HATE it. This morning is the same kind of morning I've had many times. I wake up and remember the rage episode I had last night and all the stupid and untrue things I said to my boyfriend.

I have ruined everything that has come my way because I am too fucking crazy.

I've tried several medications and counseling. I'm trying to find a psychiatrist right now but after they see the paperwork from my gp they say no. Three have said no.

Is there any legitimate help for this?! I hate being like this. I want to be able to prevent depressed/ rage episodes or atleast have them not ruin things for me. Really, really need some help.