today i had 2 rolls of sushi, a spring roll, some wine, a 250ml bottle of schweppes blood orange drink ... a tomato, and tonight i had a third of a packet of pasta, some cheese and two eggs.

i feel sick. for the first tim, last night, i vomitted up the food i ate. please don't judge me, i know it's bad. i know it's absolutely terrible ... but i am vegetarian, and last night was the first time in three years that i ate meat and i just couldn't handle it. I felt so good afterwards, though, and i didn;t understand why.

Now i am waiting for my housemate to leave so that i can vomit up this awful dinner i had. i am feeling so terrible. did i eat too much??? is that wrong to eat that much? i am probably 10kg overweight and i can't stop thinking about how much food i eat. I am not bulimic, but i am a stones throw away and i dont know what to do. i never thought i would be like this

What can i do to fix this? I feel like dying.