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[Mike S]

crocheting;

Thank you ! Still sober, Will write back

[Mike S]

Thanks Secrets ! I'll be in touch. Almost have another day knocked down !

[Rosebuddy]

Hi Mike, I haven't read all the responses due to time restraints but wanted to give you some hurable advice.

I also relapsed after being sober over 10 years. I have a painful illness, had to quit working, was on pain meRAB, in a deep depression and just said **** it i might as well drink. i just couldn't handle all the feelings, and the loss of my health and ability to work. I am on ssdi. and I recommend that you apply immediately. I think that you have to apply within 6 months of your last day of work if i am not mistaken. It took 6 months to for me to get my first check. I worked for 30 years and get 970 a month. I am now working part time and will soon go back to full time and lose the benefits, but I needed it for 4 years. so apply on line, you can always change your mind later.

Have you tried neurontin for the pain? Lyrica works even better for a lot of people. I think it was originally for peripheral neuropathy and I take it for fibromyalgia.

It is so hard to go back to aa after relapse, but once you fess up and you only have to talk about relapse one time. then let it go, grieve the loss, feel the hurt pride and let it go, and stick to the topic there after. I felt like i had to explain it at every meeting i went to. but it was just my hurt pride.

I wish you all the best. I'm glad you posted.