Hello to all~
It's been awhile since I have posted, I finnally have some positive news! My daughter is back and claiming to be ready to get clean. We are currently detoxing her and I am desperate to find a suitable rehab. There are not many in this area and i truly want her in a facility that is all women.
Praise God! I had the most difficult time Saturday night, the saddest and most weak that I have felt in some time. This mood carried over into Sunday. That's when I began randomly began dialing the nurabers that I had previously blocked from her cell phone just trying to get someone to share some information on her whereabouts and well being. She actually answered one of the nurabers that I called. I was shocked at first to hear her voice. I found out that she had been out of town but was back. She began telling me that she wanted to clean up and had a plan. The plan included her being in a hotel room alone for 6 or so days with enough heroin to wean herself off. Then she wanted to find a doctor that would put her on zuboxin and find a counsler. She wanted me to provide the hotel room as well as the heroin. Amazingly enough, she was making enough sense to me and frankly I was encouraged that I was doing something different than just waiting. I immediately refused to have part of supplying money for heroin but I was toying with the idea of the hotel room. After speaking to some other people who where thinking a lot more clear than I was at the time, I decided that I really needed to go back to the old plan, which was let me know when she was ready for rehab. She was mad and threatened to go back to the no contact. I let her be and then heard from her the following night via a text that simply said "What's up mom?" After not much time she told me that she really needed to get out of where she was at and would go to rehab. That same night she got a ride to her grandmothers and the next day(yesterday) we took her to a doctor to begin medical detoxing. I was surpised that she was prescribed a low dose oxy to get off the heroin. This is all so strange to me.
Please continue to pray for us. For my daughter to strong dealing with the detox pain, both physical and physicological. For staying committed to getting and staying clean. Please pray for me for guidance through this new territory for me. I need to stay strong especially when/if she is weak. Pray for mom who is with her 24/7 right now ( will be there after work and in the evenings.) My mom is so scared, she does not know what to expect from hour to hour.
Thank you for sharing this journey with me. I truly appreciate the support and prayers.
God Bless
Mydaughtersmom
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