I'll try to be as respectful as possible when asking this question, but I am sorry if I end up offending anyone.

I really have no desire to become sexually active with another woman. Yet, in order for me to orgasm, I have to watch another woman masturbate to orgasm. It is physically possible for me to orgasm any other way.

I physically enjoy sex with men, just never COMPLETELY. I have had sexual relations with a few different men in my life, yet none of them have been able to even bring me close to the End like women I don't even know.

Once again, I'm sorry if my words offended anyone. I have had non-sexual romantic relationships with women before, but they have all ended abruptly due to the fact that I am terrified of what people in public think.

What might this mean? Why am I physically, emotionally and sexually attracted to men, yet 'orgasmically' attracted to women?
Confusing, eh? Let me elaborate, then.

If I try and think of doing sexual things with a woman and her lower bits, it's like thinking of math. Math isn't arousing or sexual.

Most people look at porn. I LISTEN to porn. I cannot have a happy ending unless I hear an amateur woman have an orgasm. It doesn't bother me to watch her as she does it, but it doesn't really help the matters.

Is there any more clarification needed?