All of these illusions create pain eventually. Yes it's dumb to think we will never get hurt, but at least when we get hurt by friends or family, there is a reason to fix the problem and reconnect. Relationships are useless once they are done and then the person gets replaced for someone more "useful" just like replacing a pair of shoes. It feels self-interested and heartless even though these seem to be the most "passionate" loves of our lives we must move on and be cold. Would picking a mate to have children with yet somehow evolving to allow multiple partners be better? I just don't understand how we let go of people who took a huge part of our memories and life with them. It feels fucked up and wrong to my heart. But people deceive you pretty much always even when it is just with their mind, always have doubts about you, never get close. Are these relationships a waste of time. I sometimes wonder if it just a waste of time and we should just have a baby whenever we are ready and care for it ourselves since men will always leave anyway... Yes I feel I am going crazy sometimes.