I don't joke. It's just too hard.

You understood that I truely loved you and so passionately. You understood that I was absolutely sincere about my love for you. You understood this.
Why didn't you do something good and real for me, for us, a real step? Why did you wait and wait and wait and wait?
I am very, very ordinary. It's too much tension for me. I don't know what to think. I am a very ordinary person.
I hurt you. I am sorry I did it. I am sorry.