I have an overly pessimistic attitude about work in general. I am a big dreamer and have been involved in the arts heavily all of my life. I went through conservatory training and pursued my dreams but was quite impoverished and decided I couldn't see myself living that way in ten years. I landed in a job that suits me well and where I am "the star player" as my boss says. I can't help feeling trapped and as though I have failed even though by all mainstream accounts I am climbing the ladder of success. The more they praise me, the more trapped I feel.

I become secretly angry and feel like I should be doing greater things. I am constantly scheming about some greater venture feeling discontent about the success I am experiencing all the while. Any advice out there to help get my head on straight?